So, my earlier posts have all been rather on the funny/ironic side of motherhood, but these past few days my sweet baby has been extra sweet and loving which makes me miss her even more when I am gone all day. So I just got a new (awesome) job that is the perfect door for me to move up in the company to obtain a career, (btw this is on top of going to school two days a week, 4 classes per day and 2 classes online). So I will be working about 25 hours a week, Monday, Friday and weekends. Yesterday was my first day with this new company. **Side note: her amazing new preschool my girl just got into, has a rule that kids have to by there by 9:45**.
So I took my Belle to daycare, then got to work at 10:15. I had to park in a garage which cost me $10 all day, didn't leave until 5:30, walked to the garage, up to my car, drove to daycare and got there with 4 minutes to spare before I would have had to pay overage fees, which are $15 per minute you are late after 6:00PM. My sweet girl was the last one there and ran up to me and hugged me tighter than ever before and it completely broke my heart into a million teeny pieces. After working all day so that we can have an income, I finally got to fell my baby's arms wrapped around me. This is the bitter sweet moment that happens everyday. That is the hug that I work for, makes everything worth it. But at the same time, that is the hug that I am missing out on all day because I have to work in addition to school. Most families have two incomes so at least one parent gets to either not work as many days, or has weekends free. I have to take my baby to daycare Tuesdays and Thursdays at 7:15am, and get her back at 4:15PM. Then on weekdays I work she gets to daycare at 9:45am and I will get her at 6:00PM. This is horribly unfair to both of us. AND on top of that, I have to find sitters for the weekends that I have to work, and she goes to her dad's every other weekend so I miss all of that time too. Having a child at such a young age is so unfair to both the child and the mother. But at the end of the day, the child has to sacrifice more. More time with each parent, less quality alone time, learning about life. Nobody really knows, except other's in my position, how difficult it is to be a young, single mother. It breaks my heart every day when I have to leave her to the point I want to push back bedtime so I can have another hour to just hold her. AANND on top of all that, I make time for my friends, boyfriend and family. Some days I stop and wonder how the hell I do any of it and still function. There definitely could be more hours in the day, but I do manage to still take care of myself and get adequate sleep. I hope someday, one girl will read this thread and realize to not have sex. I want to help in comprehensive sex education instead of abstinence only, because honestly, that is not realistic. Teens need to know the long term responsibilities that come along with having sex and taking the risk of having an unplanned pregnancy. I promise this is a very rare post of being so serious, but I hope it touches somebody and thank you to all who take the time out to read it!
So I took my Belle to daycare, then got to work at 10:15. I had to park in a garage which cost me $10 all day, didn't leave until 5:30, walked to the garage, up to my car, drove to daycare and got there with 4 minutes to spare before I would have had to pay overage fees, which are $15 per minute you are late after 6:00PM. My sweet girl was the last one there and ran up to me and hugged me tighter than ever before and it completely broke my heart into a million teeny pieces. After working all day so that we can have an income, I finally got to fell my baby's arms wrapped around me. This is the bitter sweet moment that happens everyday. That is the hug that I work for, makes everything worth it. But at the same time, that is the hug that I am missing out on all day because I have to work in addition to school. Most families have two incomes so at least one parent gets to either not work as many days, or has weekends free. I have to take my baby to daycare Tuesdays and Thursdays at 7:15am, and get her back at 4:15PM. Then on weekdays I work she gets to daycare at 9:45am and I will get her at 6:00PM. This is horribly unfair to both of us. AND on top of that, I have to find sitters for the weekends that I have to work, and she goes to her dad's every other weekend so I miss all of that time too. Having a child at such a young age is so unfair to both the child and the mother. But at the end of the day, the child has to sacrifice more. More time with each parent, less quality alone time, learning about life. Nobody really knows, except other's in my position, how difficult it is to be a young, single mother. It breaks my heart every day when I have to leave her to the point I want to push back bedtime so I can have another hour to just hold her. AANND on top of all that, I make time for my friends, boyfriend and family. Some days I stop and wonder how the hell I do any of it and still function. There definitely could be more hours in the day, but I do manage to still take care of myself and get adequate sleep. I hope someday, one girl will read this thread and realize to not have sex. I want to help in comprehensive sex education instead of abstinence only, because honestly, that is not realistic. Teens need to know the long term responsibilities that come along with having sex and taking the risk of having an unplanned pregnancy. I promise this is a very rare post of being so serious, but I hope it touches somebody and thank you to all who take the time out to read it!